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Porn Addiction? Here’s a Step I Took Towards Freedom
Let the match ignite itself
Content Note: This blog post discusses the author’s personal sexuality.
It was 9am, and my eyelids were puffy from repeated crying. I had barely slept.
No, I hadn’t looked up porn. But I was feeling mortified because I got prematurely obsessed with a guy I barely knew. My overattachment came across in one of our conversations, which he ended. The fact that I had made him uncomfortable, and showed my obsessive tendencies in the vulnerable realm of sexuality, sent me on a shame spiral.
And I knew that my sexual habits were connected. Porn addicts know: Our maladaptive porn use reflects problems outside of the bedroom, too.
If you identify with some degree of unwanted porn dependency, maybe you, like me, find that you engage with “hot” humans in the real world in ways that feel superficial, distracted, or self-defeating.
If you could replace your worst sexual habit with a more conscious and loving habit, what else in your life could change?
To tell you a little bit more about myself, my habit is that I very rarely masturbate without thinking of the same two things. You could call these two things my kinks, fetishes, or paraphilias, but they feel so tired-out at…
